Creole Wisdom

just sitting here

It's 1:15am here, and I'm lying in bed. I can't go to sleep. There's so much on my mind, and I hate to admit this but I am sad.

I hate, hate, hate self-pity.  I do not like admitting that things aren't going swimmingly. Because I really have so much to be happy about:
•my sorority, and the unconditional love I feel when I'm here
•the new calling in church that will enable me to use some of my communication skills
•a safe home and place to lie my head
•healthy, loving parents
•plans for a great spring break
•a good, safe job that pays well
•my healthy lifestyle

Yet when I look at things and add them up I still feel like I'm getting shorted:

I worked really, really hard and studied diligently for my first geology test to only find that I did terribly. This is very frustrating for me. And then to hear two girls behind me at lab saying, "yeah (giggle) I only went to lecture once and looked over the study guide the night before and I got a 75" is so infuriating. Meanwhile I am busting my bum to take awesome notes, making 80 flashcards, and attending every lecture. I am  really needing this class for my science requirement and hate that it is requiring so much effort that is not even worth it!

One of my close church friends is already on serious boyfriend three since she joined church a month after I did. I have yet to get anything past a second date. It is really, really, really hard not think there is something wrong with you when this is happening. And to make matters worse one of the people who interviewed me for the internship (who is from here and is black) told me during sort of a break part of the interview that she has never dated/gotten asked out by anyone in the church. I have no idea why she decided to tell me that. But, lady, you scared the hell out of me. I really don't know what kind of point she was trying to make, but that comment has really stuck with me-

I am so sick of the above situation(s) that I think it's fair to have a little pity for myself.

looking forward

To another East Coast Spring Break: the 08 chapter.
1. Dean and Deluca deliciousness, 2.Gorgeous architecture, 3. Seeing new temples, 4."Aunt" Earline's house in Roxbury, 5.Kate's Paperie, 6.Perfect lighting, 7. Relaxing in Groton Long Point, 8. Nautical themes, 9.more nautical themes!, 10.Morning tea with dad, 11.Perfect lighting (again), 12.Front porches, 13.Seaside houses, 14.The Atlantic Ocean, 15.Seaside walks, 16.Mystic Pizza, 17.Katleen's parent's house, 18. D&D sweets, 19.Seeing new temples (again), 20. New Vera Bradley goodies, 21. Sunday dinners, 22.Friends/Family, 23. Fresh springtime flowers.

i am so ready!

come saturday morning

Erica (old roomie from last spring, new geology buddy)
+ museum trip
= much needed break and new inspiration.

Of course I went to the gift shop, and I saw this and really, really wanted it. But, I resisted the urge to purchase, but- (said in a sad voice) wouldn't that be a great toy for this summer?!?

Erica cracks me up, she's in the arts here, and whenever I gazed at a piece and said "oh that's interesting" or "how bizarre" she would stop me and say, "what is bizarre about this? What is interesting about that?" It's like having your own private museum guide.
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Have a superb weekend. I'm hoping I can have a good one too, despite today's onset of an ugly cold.

I will leave you with a little inspiration and challenge. Do a six word narrative, see what you come up with.

My favorites are:

Saved by women's magazines. How Bazaar.

Finally a mother. Destination China. Exultation.

Horoscopes often lie.....Capricorns are Wealthy

more good news i suppose

Yesterday I purchased my plane ticket for Utah. I am so excited, focused on all the present issues, but excited. May 20th.

I haven't hopped on a plane and left to live somewhere else for a while since August 2005. My memories of being all along and so independent have faded, but I'm sure they'll come back to me full blast this spring.

To be honest I am really excited to go. I will really miss my sorority and friends here, but my ward is really not that great. I know, I know, I should not be complaining. But I wear black every Sunday, if you get my point.

I'm glad that at least I know my testimony is strong enough to not have it contingent on the social life at church. I am like the trés awkward sorority girl there... not fitting in at all. But is okay because the Church is true, and I need to take the sacrament.

Sometime in the summer I got sick of people constantly pining away/settling for less/not realizing their own personal potential/being the epitome of mediocrity, so I personally did something about it. I am getting on a plane in May to check this place out. To see if maybe after graduation if would be a good place for me.

I could go on and on I suppose, but the bottom line is I get to go!
 

cranky

I am cranky

(Yes, that is my cranky face. You never see me perturbed, and so here it is. Pout and all)
The reason for my mood:

Too many pages in this and other books to read. Ahhh.

...I'd rather:

read British Vogue. Sigh.

Ms. E

Just a little photo share from Emma's internship shoot last weekend. Fun, fun. Is she not gorgeous? Like I always say, a real Snow White come to life.

in the spirit of sundays

So you obviously know what I do Sunday mornings, but what about the rest of the day? So, in the style of the blog-famous Nie I present:

Don't I look pensive, serene, and calm? That is what Sundays do to me! They chill me the h-cough-heck out. I love em'

I like to look around my surroundings (in this case, my parents' home). In this room alone (counting behind me) there are over 9 antiques. My mother is always dragging me to antique stores! She has great taste!

Walking around the living room, for the millionth time that day. Just thinking about things and drinking sparkling water (common).

Something fun to do...

Happy Sunday afternoon. And would you believe my self control? I did not take a nap... not once!

a good thing happened to me (finally!)

Let me tell you something good.

This morning, at exactly 10:00 am while the rest of the world was in class or slumber or kissing their lover...

I was on a phone interview, and wouldn't you know it- they offered me the internship right there.

I am so excited. I can hardly contain myself.

Provo, here I come!

This is a dream come true for me, and it will be a chance for me to really get my feet wet in this industry.

And wouldn't you know, it's located in a building with my name on it.  It was just meant to be!

me in October... little did I know : )

[valentine's] box

sung to the tune of Justin's famous video, the sorority had an all-evening valentine's box making party. being proactive, sammie and i went to archiver's to get some extra supplies. i love how it turned out!

it was a snap to put together, here is what i used:
•pink and green ribbon
•Basic Grey green pp (snowflake print)
•Bazill white sparkle paper
•Crown transparency
•Doodlebug letters
= v-day box to please

me at home

I found out about Ikea's America at Home challenge through Brittany's blog. True to form, I had to re-vamp the instructions and do it myself.

Here is what I came up with.

Perhaps I might expand this and create an entire mini album about my life @ home.

Personally, I think it's important to take photos of where you live. I wish I had more pictures of my bedrooms across the years. I got really good at in high school, and since then I make sure to get at least one picture of my entire room. After all, I don't intend to spend the rest of my life in the sorority house, even though it is a pretty good place!

Some great photographers who I think capture the "American" spirit, and Americans beautifully are:
•Nicole Hill
•Belle Photography
•Matt Clayton
•Brittany Woodall

With that said I'll leave you to have a great weekend with a picture of a place that makes me feel at home and also embodies the American spirit more than anything I know: